By the skin of my teeth

So I picked up this idea from Jim.

I'm going to hit shuffle on my ipod and write about whatever comes up.

Here we go.


The last few weeks I have felt completely swamped.

Emergency room visit for stroke level blood pressure, finding out we were pregnant, finding out we lost the baby, getting bombed by claims at work, finding out jenny needed minor surgery, feeling utterly helpless while I watched my beautiful wife writhe in pain when her miscarriage contractions started.

It's been eventful, stressful and exhausting. Yet through it all I've never felt out of control, never felt like I couldn't handle it. I didn't notice it at first but a few nights ago it hit me what we've been through the last couple of months and I was floored by the strength He has given me without my even asking. I've been lax in my walk with Him but as usual He's been right behind me with his hand perched just inches from my back, prepared to steady me when my legs start to give out.

And now, on a night where I knew I wanted to write, but didn't know what, I come across an idea for a random post and come across this song that puts it all into a focus my eyes couldn't find on their own.

My hands are searching for you

My arms are outstretched towards you

I feel you on my fingertips

My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being

Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me

And you whisper you love me

And I begin to fade

Into our secret place

The music makes me sway

The angels singing say we are alone with you

I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry

The light is white

And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

(All Around Me - Flyleaf)